Emotional Happiness!

This post is going to be out of the ordinary for me! My posts usually consist of Haydens progress and pictures of him growning up but today this post is different...I feel like I need to journal my growth and progress.. It's been a very humbling few weeks for me. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm an emotional person and that when I see someone cry I cry, when someone feels bad I can't help but feel bad too, when I see a touching commercial even...yep I get all choked up. My emotion is something that I find daunting and have hated...I can't have a heated/serious conversation without tears...I cried at a wedding dinner and I didn't even know the bride and groom very well.. As you can see I struggle with my emotion.. On the flip side sometimes I'm grateful for it as well. (just sometimes :) )

I don't know what is bringing this on to be honest...Whether it be my lack of time to do anything for myself (I'm not looking for sympathy, I know I bring all of my crazy busyness on myself), the fact that I've had my feelings hurt, the fact that I miss home badly this time of year, the fact that our family can't see Hayden growing up...I say that but really there is no place I'd rather be (ok lets be honest, I wish I could see my mom once a week haha) than here. I've found myself and discovered so many great things. With Thanksgiving approaching it's made me stop and really think of all the blessings in my life...I'm sitting here writing and can hear Hayden through the moniter playing up in his crib! He is so precious to me. I can't imagine anything better than being a mom. The fact that we are in Dental School and not in the work field trying to hang on to a job to make ends meat, a husband who dedicates all of his time to making me and Hayden happy, mine and Bretts wonderful family, friends who remind me that "this to shall pass", but most importanly the gospel. For me it's a constant reminder of my purpose! A guide and direction to help us get through this time. I've been thinking about being a parent lately and all that it entails. Hoping I can be the kind of mom that my mom is. Hoping that I can be the kind of example that my dad is. It's a scary but exciting task!

(Oh my holy are you board yet..sorry) I'm not having a break down, just simply needed to get my feelings off my chest and wanted to remember this moment in my life because it helps me to remember that we learn and grow from all of the struggle in our life :) So for that I'm grateful!